When you feel like quitting, think about “why you started”!
My story is not one of those overnight success stories though it may seem like one. I would like to shed some light as to why I embarked on this weight loss journey and why this was, and is, important to me.
I was a happy kid, growing up in a very healthy environment. My family was quite health conscious and they made sure that I understood the importance of eating the right kind of food to keep myself fit. I had never really exercised or visited the gym. I loved to dance and I danced about 4 to 5 days in a week. I believe that you need to do what you enjoy to keep yourself fit and motivated and dancing gave me that joy. I felt liberated every time I danced. Good, wholesome, home cooked food and dance kept me healthy.
"Health is not valued till sickness comes" – Thomas Fuller
This quote is one that resonated with me, my life, and the turns my life took. About four years ago, I was diagnosed with a heart disease and my health took a toll on my body and my mind. I had always been a healthy and fit woman all my life. I never had to think, not even for once, about how lucky I was to be blessed with good health up until that point. A task as regular as breathing, that we all take for granted, was so difficult for me that I did not care about what food I was putting in my mouth. I ate fast food and junk food as I could not cook for myself, I ate whatever provided me comfort in a difficult time. I struggled to get through each day as my heart couldn’t pump enough oxygen into my system. This course of action that I slipped into made me gain 15 kilos at that time. Apart from dealing with my health issues, I also went into depression. I felt like I was inside someone else’s body and I wanted to get out of that body, I was in denial. My heart was struggling to cope with the stress I was putting my body through with my weight gain. My world turned upside down.
“Love cures People, both the ones who give it and the one who receives it” – Karl Menninger
After 6 shocks (DCR) and two surgeries over a period of 3 years in Melbourne, I was told that I had an 8% chance of survival. Travel was out of the question. But given I had only such a miserable chance at survival, I wanted to be with my loved ones. I decided to take that chance and I moved back to live with my family in India. I wanted to spend last few days of my life with family and friends. Believe it or not, that was one of the best decisions I had taken in my entire life. Medical help in India was great and the doctors could finally regularise my heart rate. I could finally breath normally to get enough oxygen into my system! Sometimes you just need someone to believe in you and help you take the first step. In my case, I had my family and friends who showered their love on me. It was that Love that gave me the mental strength I needed. I felt and still feel blessed to receive so much love from everyone around me. And something beautiful happened. I started loving myself and understood the importance of self-love. I bounced back, and quite literally, stronger than ever before.
“Healing is an art. It takes time, it takes practice and it takes love.”
My journey to recovery was filled with ups and downs, like a roller coaster ride of trials, many many errors, and a collection of small milestones along the way. I have come to realise that time heals most of our physical and mental wounds. My weight loss journey has been so much bigger than just shedding kilos. This journey I embarked on, gave me freedom, joy, boosted my confidence, and it made me fall madly in love with my life. No matter where you are at the moment, you can find that freedom too. You just have to surround yourself with people who truly love you, care for you, and be mentally prepared to transform your life into something worth living for.
A tip I would like to give everyone reading this blog is that every time you feel crestfallen and want to quit, please go back and remember why you embarked on this journey in the first place. The goal to transform your life. Sometimes, all you need is a little perspective, to boost you towards that goal of yours.
Stay fit, Live a healthy life and most importantly ‘Love yourself’. Self love is the best love.